Acceptance

Acceptance, What does it mean? Many people search for the answer, but none have found the real thing. Many died by the hands of their peers, by who they called friends. Acceptance, What is the price? What do you have to sacrifice in order to be accepted? Life, its full of difficult questions. There seems to be no correct answer, no final definition. I think the Definition of Acceptance is being accepted for who you are and who people see you as. The World is ever changing history tells us this, nature tells us this, even our own growth process tells us this, so why do we still denial about such things? Why don't we accept the people for who they are? Everyone changes, even I have changed, more then you know, but yet people are raised to think in such a closed minded manner. The old is suppose to warn, guide, and protect the future, yet many of our parents, or maybe a few, don't accept us. Life is about change, being born was our gift, death is our curtain call, many still don't understand that their religion has mistakes, even though their scriptures are holy, the book was still made by man, in anywhere in the scriptures did it say your god, sat down, and wrote these events? I believe in God, but I don't listen to everything in the Holy Bible, not because I disagree, but it has changed, somethings are happening which the the human who wrote it did not see. The future is ever changing, possibilities are everywhere, the impossible can be come possible. I just wish the walls in between us can fall so we can see we're all the same. A squirrel is a squirrel no matter what, a duck is a duck, a bird is a bird, lizard a lizard, most of us see that way but we have to see a human is a human no matter what. Please treat everyone with curtsy and respect. You never know what might happen.

Right & Wrong?

First, There is no such thing as "Right" & "Wrong" only "Who is Right" and "Who is Wrong", We might say something isn't right or that's wrong, we may even be wronged, but Who is Right? Who is the final judge, I used to think God was the final judge, but I was Wrong, This life isn't hard and was made with the most simplest thing in mind, a simple concept we all go toward, one goal we go for... "Happiness". There is no true "Happiness", we fight, we kill, we hurt, yet we still say we're right? Who gives you the right to say your "Right"? Who gives me the right to say your "Wrong"? No One That's Who! No One Is Right And No One Is Wrong! We're All Just Playing This Stupid Game Called Life!  Where One Is Beat and One IS Doing The Beating! I Ask Why! Why are some people hated and some loved? What did that person do to deserve that kind of treatment? Why Do Innocent People Die? Why Do Bad People Live? What Makes This World So Screwed Up? Is It Money? Is It Lust? Is It Pride? Is It Self Hatred? Who Was The First To Commit Suicide? Who Was The First To Feel Depressed? Who Was The First To Make Laws? Who Was The First To Say "Don't Do This" And "Do That"? Am I That Disgusting That I Have To Be Hurt? Is The True Me That Horrid? Will This Get Any Better? Will It Get Worse? I don't know anymore, in the first time in my life where I can't see the future, where I can't see happiness. I always kept moving forward, now I want to go back, back to the times were I was okay being Him, where I could look in the mirror, where I don't feel so disgusting, where times were so simple, where I didn't think about killing myself... I can no longer go back, I can't take things I did back, I can't say what I wanted to say. Why is Life So Hard? and if its not, Why Are The People In It Making It Hard? What Is "Right" & What is "Wrong"? Why Am I So Confused? They say people like me commit suicide at least once before 20, 40%, higher then any other teen in the U.S., You Know What They Don't Say, How Many Succeed! How Many Succeed In Killing Themselves! Is That The Other 60%? I'm Scared And Don't Know What To Do. My Friends Are In Other States, The People I Talk To At School Are Just That People At School, My Family Doesn't Even Want Me, They Only See Him, What Makes Him Better Then Me? Now My Art Won't Even Be Looked At...... dA has Thrown Me Out, No One Likes Me Anymore, and They Just Met Me. What Did I Do? What Did I Do So Wrong? All I wanted was to have fun and make friends. I did what everyone else did. What Did I Do Wrong?

Four Elements

Ok before you read this I just have to say this is a preview of a new manga I just thought up of. Thx and Enjoy!!!

Four Elements:

In 2013, no one could have seen the light of day. The Apocalypse to hold of the world as it crushed it with it giant hands. A few mouths after the total destruction of cities and civilization its self, four beings rouse in order to create a new world. The Flame Goddess, Earth God, Wind Goddess, and Water God. The Flame Goddess was the leader of the unfortunate, the outcast, and the weirdos; The Earth God was the leader of the courageous, strong, and honorable. The two of them spent many years creating the new order. The Flame Goddess was planing to make the sky her home and The Earth God would have the earth as his domain. But they never realized the two others were out for destruction. The Wind Goddess, an ex serial killer, plan to burn what was left of the world and her partner The Water God planed to spread addiction through the planet. When they first met, The Flame and Earth knew what they had to do they fought against the Wind and Water. After the War, The Wind Goddess punish met was to forever live under ground never to see the light of day, and The Water God was to life in the seas, unable to get out of his own addiction... 3000 years later a girl named Aikira saw a meteor fall for the heavens, though see never seen one, she knew it was one. When she had came to the crash site, all that was left was a pod? When a boy came out, not even knowing his name, she took him back to her town and had him treated. She was right, his wounds healed quick as if he wasn't wounded at all, he began to regain conscious an hour later, he was an angel of the sky cities, a Hybrid to be exact. What was a Hybrid doing on the surface? Why did he fall out of the sky? And where was the city she never saw? This is the tale of the Four Elements.

Hoped you liked it its a summary, just an over view I just had to write (^_^). If you wanna ask me some question then feel free to in the comments section. Hope you like it and look forward to the oneshot!

Life

Life is categorized by Events and Choices, even the smallest choice can cause a major event. But fate can't be controlled just by your choices but others too. Your choice can be crushed by another choice. Here are some examples: If you write a book it was your choice to write a book but people have the choice to buy it or not, if you want to be a singer and you made an EP but its the peoples choice if they listen to it or not, and etc. So you see now that you can't take full control of your destiny but you can try to keep it on track, if someone pushes you off its YOUR choice if you wanna get back on or not. So the next time you say its your fault and someone else was doing a bad thing, like if you got into an accident and your light was green but that drunk driver hit you its not your fault its the guy who decided to drive while drunk, or in the anime "Durarara" when the main character wants to help that girl and then events happen and he ends up taking her to a safe place, you remember right? Of course you remember cuz the next thing that happened was that she left him standing there, even though all those events happened in the end it was her choice to continue it or not. You can make the best choices in the entire world but when it comes down to it someone else has the choice to let it go on or not.

"Life is a Game of Chance and You are One of the Players in the Game."

by Yuuki Bonilla

Paramore: Playing God

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iDy2wCQYSrU

Diary 1

Dear Diary

Today is May 23, 2011 8:36PM EDT. This is my first time using my full feelings. Truly I'm kinda scared, I don't know what's in store for me in life and I wish I was braver. I've been reading Hourou Musuko, and its been giving me mix feelings. I haven't really met an actual Transgender, Transsexual, or Transvestite. And it just makes me wonder, who could be gay or if that guy is really a guy. I shouldn't be saying this but there's a guy at my school who gives off this feeling I'm only catching. His name is Christopher and I have to admit I saw him in nothing but hoodies the first time I went to DPH and now he all out there and he has this one long piece of hair at the back of his head and it just makes me wonder if he was a girl before and that's his sign to other Trans. I guess Trans can only since Trans hahahahahaha. Truly this is like me poring my feeling out right now... I want a wig too... I have black peoples hair and I just want straight hair for once in my life... maybe just long hair... But don't worry about me you OutSiders I have problems just like you and I should do me just like you should do you. Well that's the end of my Log I hope you don't tell anyone. ;3

http://www.mangareader.net/582-31219-1/hourou-musuko/chapter-1.html

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ca3hhFfFH-k

P.S. I'm a Transgender... and hi Odessa-san :3

The Novels, The Manga, And The Anime 2

I had already given you a glimpse of three Manga Ideas I have now I will do Three More:

Death:

In our world there are four dimensions, One The Dimension Of Heaven (Realm of Angles), Two The Dimension Of Hell (Realm of Demons), Three The Dimension Of Spirit (Realm of Souls), And Four The Dimension Of Physical (Realm of Humans). But where are the reapers where do they live? They Live In Two Dimensions Spirit and Physical. My name is Sigma Death I was born Dead. Recently I moved to Tokyo, Japan from where I lived under A direct order from Death himself. I was Accepted at Death Academy, pretty obvious right? But Apparently no one noticed this was a school for Young Shinigami. I'm a Reaper, low class, a beginner. But I seem to have befriended a lot of S Rank Reapers the First was Alice Wonderland (aka Dream Reaper, Scythe: White Rabbit, Sex: Female), Joker (aka Wonder Reaper, Scythe: Ace, Sex: Female), Carnage (aka Bloody Reaper, Scythe: Eternal Damnation, Sex: ????) and there's me, Sigma Death (aka Nightmare Reaper, Scythe: Black Rabbit, Sex: Male). This is my Story.

Life:

My name is Yui Masuka. I live a pretty normal life. There's No excitement to be found here so if your in to shounin you might as well leave right now. I live in Manhattan, New York; The Big Apple, The Empire State. I had just graduated collage, with my masters degree. I live alone now in a apartment I found Cheap, 1,200 a month. And I just got my dream job, A Real Estate Agent, even though I had some problems I'm working my way up. Soon I will be the best Real Estate Agent in Manhattan. All I need to do is get past one thing... my best friend Kawaii and hes a cacaroch, but hes not that bad or ugly cirtinlly a ODD like me shouldn't have him but he won't leave what will I do? This is my Troublesome Story.

Love:

My Name is Musica Martinez. I live in Brooklyn, New York. I am a freshmen in high school, I thought it was going to be the worst year of my life until my friend moved away, Then I knew it was the worst. Someone has moved in to his house. Its my first time with someone new practically everyone knows one another we go to a small school built for the education of our community a private school only a few got accepted to. But now I meet her for the first time, her name is Sonia Gomez and she just moved up the ranks to the hottest girl in school, but she'll never be with me everyone picks on me saying I'm the hottest guy in school its so hard to be hated by everyone. This is my Love Story.

Next updates going to be Blood, Sleep, and Third War. Hope you Enjoyed reading this!

The Novels, The Manga, And The Anime

I'm creating novels, well for now that is I'm Starting off with my (hope its a) hit Manga/Anime (hopefully Novel too) I'll tell you there names and a summery about them you won't regret it I promise! :3

TransFer:

A girl named Yuuki Gonzalez. She is 16 and ready for a Japanese school. A transfer student from America, she has to get used to her new surroundings. With her friends Misuki Shiro, Alex "Popsicle Stick" Findermen, and Richard Martinez. What will be in store for her as she goes through her first year in Tokyo, Japan.

Elite:

Seattle, Washington. Home to the Sky Needle and the group OutSiders. Christina is part of this group, but there's one catch in this group... you have to be an Elite. Elites are half humans and half animals, born in the dark ages their genes where dormant till a Dragon Rider made a machine to release this hidden gene within the human race. Now Christina, Kranos, Silvia, Brittney, Maria, and Joseph; will make the group OutSiders from homeless to rich and maybe the Elites would be treated differently. A pack of animals are now released in Seattle and there taking the city by storm.

Edge:

Charles and Kaz Foxtrot are the most happiest wedded couple anyone has ever seen. But they have a big secret the company they work for is a old assassin group that has been in Chicago since the city was founded. Enchanted Forest is the best assassin company in all of the Americas, taking out people who are a treat to the economy or the government or just a big company they will take any case. But when Kaz found out that she was pregnant they planned on leaving the compan. But just when the baby arrived at their home, on the day they celebrated the first week Charles II was their the house was hit (robbed according to police) and they killed the babysitter and the little baby. When they arrive back at the company they receive a weird message "Your Company Betrayed You." They go on a hunt for the killer, the messenger and go deeper then the company allowed them too. What will they find? What will they see? Who will they kill?

I hope you like the summaries there are still more books I didn't summarized like "Death, Life, Blood, Love, Third War, and Sleep" I hope one day I'll be able to make my company. Want to hear the name? Its called "FullBlast Entertainment" Now that you told you the name I'll tell you what I'm looking for.

FullBlast is looking for

Web Designers

Mangakas

Pros at:

SAI Tool Paint

and Manga Studio EX 4.0

hope you can comment and apply. (doing this because I finally got Microsoft Office 2010 ;3 )

I'm Baaaaaccccck!!!

Sorry I haven't been blogging in a while. X3 . Just thought I could take a break and think about somethings. You know Life and stuff (laughs). ummmmm. But I just had to blog cuz I'm confused I can't think about the future... Everything I want to do means I need money and I need help and I need to be two years older. Oh! March 25 was my birthday guys! Now I'm 16 years old. After that I went to Megacon for the 26th and 27th... It was the most happiest moment of my life! I mean.... Without my family I would be sad at times but I feel more alive without them... I know that sounds selfish but u haven't met them.. how they treat me like they know me.. haha I don't even think they know a fraction about me, but thats mostly my fault! :3 .  I did never tell them about things that happened to me, but this blog is starting to get depressing so about Megacon! It was a blast guys! Really I wanted to buy the whole lot hehe! But I don't have that kind of money... I never told you guys about my dreams, did I? Well OutSiders get ready, cuz my dreams are big! I dream of one day being in Tokyo, Japan! Standing in a window looking down on the city planing my next big invention or my next big hit in the manga/anime world! I have a lot of storys! But at last I'm not that good at free drawing... You know I haven't been to my yahoo page in the longest... I't must have a lot of spam mail (crying) I Hate Spam!!! Sorry for my rambles but this is why you read right to see how I am and what I'm doing, lol stalkers, joking joking hahahahaha!!! Man isn't this the biggest blog I made? hahahahaha rally this is what I get for not blogging for a while. Maybe I'll give you places where you can look me up if I disappear again, ok?
Yahoo: yuukib787@yahoo.com
Facebook: Yuuki Bonilla
DeviantArt: http://copyyuuki.deviantart.com/
Please be good to me!!

Bad Day.... A Really Bad Day

Its a bad day you guys, for me that is. I was walking to my second period class and this teacher dude told me to talk off my hood, I ignored him. Indispite my discretion he continued to howl at me to take of my hood, when I did he kept the argument going, sending me to the office... LIKE THE ASSHOLE HE IS!!! So I repeatedly told him I've done what you've asked why don't you leave me alone and he continued forcing my hand to call him a pedophile, which he didn't like to be called... After that he told me he was the principle of the school, I said "Oh really" then looked at his tag and guess what it said... PEDOPHILE no no no no no joking. It said Principle, yet no one informed me our principle was white and an asshole... Usually teachers reflect their leaders behavior but I guess in this case it wasn't true. So I ended up in the office with a piece paper their not going to read... Sucks for me, right? I mean really a hood... what do I have under there a gun how can i fit a gun in my hood anyways? I HATE AUTHORITIES!!! When I'm the boss I won't have to deal with that Shit! and neither will my employees! Really A HOOD!!! My story's never going to be told, and now I have to deal with my parents... I HATE MY LIFE!!! Right now I kinda wish I could get suicidal but I can't. So I'm going to the worst best thing an OutSider like myself can do... DEAL WITH IT!!! All of this stupidity over my hoodie.... What has the World come to OutSider? The InCrowders have ruined everything for us, when I mean everything I MEAN EVERYTHING. We can't even bring our Wooden Katanas anymore...

Love Yuuki, I hope your day was better then mine, and It Always Looks Better From The OutSide!!!

Bad Day.... A Really Bad Day

Its a bad day you guys, for me that is. I was walking to my second period class and this teacher dude told me to talk off my hood, I ignored him. Indispite my discretion he continued to howl at me to take of my hood, when I did he kept the argument going, sending me to the office... LIKE THE ASSHOLE HE IS!!! So I repeatedly told him I've done what you've asked why don't you leave me alone and he continued forcing my hand to call him a pedophile, which he didn't like to be called... After that he told me he was the principle of the school, I said "Oh really" then looked at his tag and guess what it said... PEDOPHILE no no no no no joking. It said Principle, yet no one informed me our principle was white and an asshole... Usually teachers reflect their leaders behavior but I guess in this case it wasn't true. So I ended up in the office with a piece paper their not going to read... Sucks for me, right? I mean really a hood... what do I have under there a gun how can i fit a gun in my hood anyways? I HATE AUTHORITIES!!! When I'm the boss I won't have to deal with that Shit! and neither will my employees! Really A HOOD!!! My story's never going to be told, and now I have to deal with my parents... I HATE MY LIFE!!! Right now I kinda wish I could get suicidal but I can't. So I'm going to the worst best thing an OutSider like myself can do... DEAL WITH IT!!! All of this stupidity over my hoodie.... What has the World come to OutSider? The InCrowders have ruined everything for us, when I mean everything I MEAN EVERYTHING. We can't even bring our Wooden Katanas anymore...

Love Yuuki, I hope your day was better then mine <3 , and It Always Looks Better From The OutSide!!!

JailMate

Jail Breaking your iTouch is a bad idea, jail breaking anything is a bad idea. I know about this, trust me. I've been through 2 jail breakings and its been a bad break up, for both. I know prices are going higher, and you income is low, mine is $0 a month and at the end of the year its $0, so don't blame it on income OutSiders. Well I just restored my iTouch again and non of my songs reloaded again! So its like the saying "fool me once your fault, fool me twice my fault". So the jail breakings fooled me twice last time I had more then 500 songs this time I had more then 800 songs, 800!!! it was hard enough to replace 500 now I have to replace 800 no more jail breaking for me, that's for sure. Well whatever you OutSiders can do do not jail break, I repeat, DO NOT JAIL BREAK YOUR IPOD!!!, of any kind be it iPod Nano or iPod Touch! So my opinion I say you don't do it and your free to argue.

Love Yuuki, and Its Always A Better View From The OutSide. Good Luck OutSiders!

Don't Be Mad and That One Wish

Some InCrowders they laughed at me because i slept on the bus yesterday and missed my stop..... Sad but true. But what are you going to do their InCrowders, they always pick at mistakes like their perfect, which their not! You know I used to be a DarkSider and an InCrowder, yes really! I was a DarkSider in elementary I used to get bullied because I was small, but I'm a girl what did they expect, you know. They just became friends with me to stay on my good side. Then when I moved I wanted to make friends so i became an InCrowder, that didn't workout so well either people started to walk all over me. So its best to be an OutSider is the best choice for me. I'm happier this way and no one messes with me so I'm good. I just wish that their were other OutSiders at my school just like me I know I said an OutSider is a person with out a group but us OutSiders got to stick together, you know. InCrowders have it so good but they just take advantage of each other. I can't wait for their downfall. Forgive me I may have lost the light for a second but I have it back.... Maybe I shouldn't have blogged today because I'm feeling unusually low. But I still did and theirs always tomorrow!

Love Yuuki, Its Always A Better View From The OutSide!

Schools?

My dad has been saying that I'm weird and have no friends... Witch is true but i believe that I was born this way and if people can't accept that that's their problem not mine + the school system has changed their are more OutSiders now and more groups with in the InCrowd. But I don't blame him he was born in what the 1980's lol. I also had a wonderful day at school we were doing the FCAT writes and it was about how Fame affects a persons life, and I may add I did a wonderful job.... It WAS EPIC I Promise!!! Dang my sis just called now me and my bro (twin :3 ) have to go see our bigger brother for his hair and we don't want it cut. But it won't :3. I hope you guys follow more and I promise the next post will be more EPIC! lol Epic voice!

Love Yuuki, and I say It Looks Better From The OutSide!

Yuuki Triginomitri and Language

Hello Again OutSiders!!! Wait, why does she call us OutSiders? How do we know if shes talking of us or someone else? Yes, your probably asking these same questions now, but this post is dedicated to my encyclopedia of words and phrases I'll be using... So Let Us Begin!!!

OutSiders: My Readers; You ;3.

InCrowders: Populars, Goths, Nerds, Jocks; basically anyone who is in a group of people, Unlike Us OutSiders who have no group.

DarkSiders: OutSiders who have lost the light and are in the DarkSide of the world, Vary Angry Beings; They hate InCrowders, like OutSiders, But with a Deep Passion almost with the intent of killing everyone (because over 90% are InCrowders; not a real %).

The DarkSide: Nothing is like this part of the world its full of negativity everyone is afraid of one another therefore its a very dangerous place to be in.

The OutSide: Sunny, Bright, and Full of Energy unlike the InSide and OutSide no one is afraid just misunderstood and lonely. A very Happy but also a very Sad place to be in.

The InSide: A box the InCrowders live in they party and these boxes seem fun from the OutSide but truly its not much judging in the InSide, a vary cruel place to live in.

This is the Language, you OutSiders will be reading from now on and heres a new phrase I made up in school

This is Yuuki and from my stand of view(wait for it....wait for it....) It Looks Better From The OutSide!

See you then. (I hope you like it :3 )

What Scientests Don't Get

Everyday we might see a new invention come out and its all the talk of the city we live in... But the ones that usually are talked about the most are the ones that we haven't forgotten. The ones that opened our minds to new possibilities. The ones with creativity and Imagination. What scientist today don't get today is that science was build off of our imagination, not reality. Not the concrete but the abstract. Our dreams created science and we don't believe that anymore we believe science is reality not dreams. Dreams is what fuels us today. Dreams is what fuels our achievements and its what fuel me. I'm a dreamer, not a realistic person... I Day Dream, I Dream, I Imagine, and I Create; This because I'm a Dreamer. With every passing day i dream something new and i promise to whoever is reading this you'll be the first to know when my mangas and inventions are out (including my dunishis). So I bid you a farewell.

Untill Next Time, Love TransYuuki <3

My First Blog

I see a lot of blogs saying what the persons feeling and whats up with their life... What About Ours? The OutSiders! The ones who weren't excepted in society because of who we are and what we like. Well my blog is going to be about me but its going to be whats going on and what I see and believe. So I hope you guys are ready for the most wonderful experience of your blogging life!